i am drunk

.. i guess alcohol really helps easing pain anyway...,even just for a
while..

i can feel the numbNess and coldness

loVe it

pAin-last chance

i am bounded with so many emotions now...confusing..its reAl

the people i am with now make my day meanignful as it should be but it's not
enough..it is never enough...

it's so hard to tolerate things..

i devoted myself in our relationship..but i guess i am not that enough for him..it's so hard..i keep myself strong and positive but the uncertainties and doubts run through my veins..i am cold,i am numb..i guess

the hEll i care...

cheezy or corny??

i dont see why we need candy.. when theres a thing as sweet as you

>♥♥kaCornihan evEr♥♥<

>sept. 28, 2009 12:19:01<

he said:>"di ko talaga kaya,di ko talaga alam kung bakit, pro di ko tlaga kaya, isipin ko plang na mawawala kas di ko kya ehh"<

>sept. 28, 2009 12:05:54<

he said:>"di kita iiwan kahit anong mangyari bhe..love u so much"<

>sept.28, 2009 11:52:38<

he said:>"natatakot ako na wala ka sakin,please,wag mo ko iwan,please..i need u,kelangan kita.hindi ko makakaya pagnawala ka sakin..love u so much"<

>sept.28, 2009 10:27:59<

he said:>"love u so much talaga bhe..un lang talaga maipapangako ko sayo, ang mahalin ka ng walang haggan..love u so much princess"<

>sept. 28, 2009 10:18:34<

he said:>"di un magyayari..mamahalin kita hanggang kamastayan ko, love u so much princess..love u so much"<

>sept.27, 2009 00:53:51<

he said:>"sabi ni sir na asawa ka daw nya..toto ba un ma'am?ganito kasi sabi sakin kanina,itx mo asawa ko kung may mangayari saki"<

>sept.27, 2009 00:38:45<

he said:>"ma'am sabi pala ni sir kanina bago sya mawalan ng malay na sabihin ko dw sayo na mhal na mhal ka daw nya kahit ano pang mangyari"<

>sept.29, 2009 18:31<

she said:>"are u real??totoo ka ba talaga sa mga sinasabi mo??gano ka kceryoso??u're young pero kung mkapagsalita ka prang sigurado ka o sadyang sinasabi mo lang lahat ng yan para mapaniwla mo ako??sana lang pinagiisipan mong mabuti lhat ng pinagsasabi mo sakin, pero its ok kung ndi man totoo,di ako umaasa na magyayari lahat ng ipinangako mo, mahirap na, ako rin ang mahihirapan sa huli if i believe ur sweetest words but opposite ang magyayari..let's just wait and see "<

alay lakad kuno sa mr.donut

..hahaha..

'd trio

(left to right-pLintet,elaiNe and nIel)

xUper pgod dtym..walang maaux na tulog and walang kain..

kape..kape..kape

pero maXaya rin naman..atleast nakapag kape kmi..hahaha (:

Di mo ba alam,na ako'y nasasaktan

Sa tuwing aalis ka't d ka nag paalam

Nais kong malaman mo

Na ako'y magtatampo

Pag-nalimutan mo

Ang pasalubong ko

di mo ba alam na akoy nasasaktan

Sa tuwing makikita kitang

May ibang kakuwentuhan

Nais kong malaman mo

Na ako'y nandirito

Pwede ba ako kahit makeosyoso

Chorus

Ngunit pagsapit ng gabi

Heto ka saking tabi

At sa pagibig mo di ako mag-sisisi

At pag-gising sa umaga maamo mong mukha ang makikita

At sa akin ay lubos na nagpapaligaya...

Di mo ba alam na ako'y nasasaktan

Sa tuwing ika'y nalulungkot at mata ay luhaan

Nais kong malaman mo yan ay pupunasan ko

Sa katapatan ng pagmamahal ko sa i(repeat chorus 2x)

Di mo ba alam.....

-->>xUper cUte talaga itong kanta na to..lOve it

intramz...intramz...intrams.

..xUper pgod talaga..as in...

..di ko akalaing ganito ako kabusy this year..di bale..matatapos rin 2

..go..go..

(isa pa pla..ung acoustic competition na sinalihan namin..di ko alam kung mganda ang kinalabasan..parang wala lang..gudlak sa mga comments and feedbacks..)

sPiEl 08

..ang aking mga barkada sa napagndang paaralan ng WPU..hehehe..

spiel '08-->karen,.chane.,and joan..sila nalang ang natitirang matibay....

mga kasama ko sa hirap at ginhawa,,sa inuman man o sa lakwatsahan..parbol din talaga kung minsan..

guys..khit san man ako mapunta..ndi ko kyo malilimutan..

love you..♥♥♥

↓↓basag..konting lamat dito sa puso↓↓

..before i let you go..i want to say i love you..i hope that you'll listening coz its true baby you'll be forever in my heart and i know that no one else will do..

sana dumating ung araw na magkaayos tyo..at sa pgdating ng araw na yun..sana ikaw pa rin ang mahal ko..

♣♣loosing hope♣♣

[sana lang talaga..maging maayos na uli kmi..kung nahihirapan xa at nasasaktan,,doble ung napupunta sakin..]

-->minsan naiisip ko nga kung kelan pa ba ako mamamatay ng wala ng gnitong mga problema..at least isa lng ung skit..hndi na paulit ulit..

the truth??

-->hindi ko na mhal si mark,,matagal ko ng kinalimutan na may minahal akong kagaya nya,,but then the memories still hunt me..ang hirap ng gnitong sitwasyon..

-->i loved francis so much,,i cant afford of loosing him..kaya nga sobrang sakit ung mga nangyayari ngayon..

-->anu pa bng kelangan kong gwin??

wala na peng..wala na..

-->you lost everything..nothing's left..

ouchhh!!!

◘◘◘let's cElebraTe◘◘◘

..august 02, 2009

-->inuman to 'd max kasama ang baRkada..

rason???

-->nanalo ako sa election..

treasurer na ako ng SC ng WPU..

rason uli??

-->may misunderstanding kami ng bf ko..

-->bakit gnun??..wala naman akong ginagawang masama..khit kailan ndi na ako makikipagbalikan sa 'kanya'..may mahal na ako pero aun..nagktampuhan parin..i tried to explain but he said COOL OFF muna kami..araaayy ku!!!

--?pero kung un ang ung way para magkaauz kmi..so be it..titiisin ko na lng...

eXams,rEcitation,assignmEnts at ano paba???

..kung alam nyo lang..patayan talaga ngayon pagdtaing sa pagaaral ng ganitong kursO..nakakapagod talaga at nakakatuyo pa ng utak..nasAan na ba kya ang utak ko??>>malamang peng nasa paGamutan na..hEmorrhage na ang inabot..haha

..wala na bang awa ang mga guro dito??

long quiz kay sir loPez..

recitation ng pagkahahaba habang article kay sir soc..

assignments na walang bukas kay sir barone..

..asan na ba ang pahinga??wala na ata..

wish ko lang talagang mkasurvive ako sa mga subjects na ito ngayong araw..

..go..go..go..kaYa ko ito

sus ito lang??

>>nakuh peng yan pa nga lang nosebleed ka na..hehehe

oo alam ko..kaya nga gudlak saKin♀♀♀

..mY am♥r..

l♥ve of my life,

..i thank God for giving you into my life,i am very happy that i met you,became my l♥ver and part of each other's life..i never regreted the day i said 'i l♥ve you',i mean it,though we are far from each other by distance but we are still near from each other by heart..

..THANK you for making me feel special and accepted,for showing me that im still worth it for love and care..thank you for understanding me,for cathcing me when im falling,for making me realize things and helped me for becoming a more matured being,for grasping my hands when im down and most of all,for loving me unconditionally..

i hope that this l♥ve story of ours will definitely lasts and whatever catastrophe will came,still we hold each others hands tightly and never let go.

..as long as i am breathing,surely you are my ONLY ONE,there's no one in this world shall take your place here in my heart..

..there's no exact words in this world which could define my l♥ve for you, i am greateful that i had you, i am hoping someday that i wake up in my bed and the first person i will glance with is y♥u..

..favor??please take good care of my heart because once someone borrowed it but returned it broken and bleeding,i cant afford to loose another battle of love again,the pain is killing me..

i wanted you so badly,,so please stay with me forever...

IL♥VE U..FR♥NCIS

aNd i L♥Ve U SΘ

♀♥♀this song is dedicated to my beloved namely,Francis♀♥♀

Come and lay here beside me

I'll tell you how I fee

There's a secret inside me

I'm ready to reveal

To have you close, embrace your heart

With my love Over and over

These are things that I promise

My promise to you

For all of my life

You are the one,

i will love you faithfully foreveR

All of my life you are the one

I'll give to you my greatest love For all
of my life.Ooohhh..O yeah...

Let me lay down beside you

There's something you should know

I pray that you deciide to

Open your heart and let me show

Enchanted worlds of fairy tales

A wonderland of love

These are things that I promise

My promise to you

All of my life

With all of my heart

These are things that I promise

♥♥♥

take care(:

..emOng-eMo..

..i dOnt wAnt tO be hUrt..sΘ i mAsteRed leTting gO..

..undeniable..

..AHAIxT..meron parin talaga akong hinahanap..hindi ko alam kung ano pero alam ko,malalaman ko rin yun at aking makakamtan,kung hindi man ngayon..malamg bukas..hahaha
ΩΩΩ
..ang saya ng buhay..hindi ko akalain na magiging ganito ako after ngBreak up ko(3 months ago)..sa totoo lang naging manhid talaga ako sa nararamdaman ng ibang tao,, i do not easily trust guys(pinaka??)..naku mahirap na,baka saktan lang ako..i cant afford to have that this time..xUper skit pdin kYa..
ΩΩΩ
..aiii sandali,..meron pla akong bf,,francis name nya..hindi xa tgarito..aun ngkakilala kmi dhil sa kpatid ko,,ngkakatx and tumatawag hanggang sa maging KAMI na nga..
ΩΩΩ
...ang saya lng ng relasyon namin,puro kami away at bati(irony)..hahaha..ewan ko ba sa relasyong ito kung bakit ganito nangyayari..marahil ang dahilan ay..hindi kami nakakasama dahil nga malayo tsaka i dont know ha kung talagang mhal nya ako,,un sabi nya,,kung ako naman ang tatanungin khit nga malayo ehh MAHAL KO ko na siya dahil sa mga bgay na gingawa nYa,,kahit maliit na bagay aun i really,really appreciate it//sweet kasi pti mga sinasabi..
ΩΩΩ
..recently nga nagaway kami..dun pa talaga sa first monthsary namin..aun my hindi lnng pagkakaintindiha..[ito kasi si babae nagselos ba naman]..nakuhh hah..ehh malay ko ba na tumulong lang sya..[yan kasi ehh..di muna nagtatanong..nagmamatigas agad]..huhu oo na nga..aun pti si bf nagalit narin ata[cno ba naman kasing hindi??huh??]..pero deep inside mahal na mhal ko talaga xa and malambot naman talaga ang puso ko pagdating sa kanya..[magsorry kana lang kasi]..ahayy..anu pa nga ba??
ΩΩΩ
..Baby ko sana po magkabati na tYo..sorry kung hindoi kita binigyan ng chance to explaine..hOpe mapatawad mo ako..
ΩΩ Ω
..i love u very much..

i wish i cud make things right before its too late..

truely,my past experiences brought me to the bottom of no where, i cant let go of that nightmare,it still haunts me the moment i think of it,the moment i closed my eyes,there's nothing i can do except blaming myself and made me feel how nonsense i am and how i embraced ideocracy..insane indeed for i didn't give importance to the advices of my parents,i wish at first i've listened to them,they know the best and that was proven and most specially i did'nt give importance to myself,now i've lost almost of it i have nothing except a broken heart and soul.YES, i am totally broken..

ΩΩΩ

THE STORY..

..i met a man named Mark, after knowing each other he courted me,,and the courting stage lasts for almost or more than a month..

ΩΩΩ

[2008]

..the time i lent my love on him,,this day onwards our relationship became better but still i am not satisfied and happy beacause my parents is against in our relationship,but then i dont care,i said to myself that i'll defend and protect our relationship because i love him so much as so as he..

..BUT sometimes relationships encouters so many problems,there is jealousy and misunderstanding..i thought i knew him well but then i didn't..our love lived with so many lies,at first he definitely denying it until i discovered the truth..he confessed everything to me and explained that he just did it because he's afraid of loosing me..i tried and gave him the best of my understanding, we went on to our relationship until my parents discovered the truth..they very angry and almost hated me for being their daughter..there is one time when my father put out his anger on me,he said "hayop ka,siguro totoo lahat ng mga pinagsasabi ng lalaking un(he's pertaining to mark)nakakalow moral ang ginawa mo,wag ka ng umuwi ng bahay,kunin mo na mga gamit mo"..i was really2 shocked,theres nothing i can do but to cry and cry and cry..i dont know else what will i do..

ΩΩΩ

..i am really demoralized that time,haggard and wasn.t able to feel that i am still accepted,even my bothers and sister,also my relatives,they already knew what happened and got interfere,they gave advices and told me to let go of this feeling,i am still young and good fortune awaits me..i am confused,i dont really know what to do and what to think,,after days have passed i've decided one thing for myself..LETTING GO is sometimes necessary to save one's life

ΩΩΩ

..I THINK THIS IS THE MOST MATURED DECISION IVE MADE FOR MYSELF..

..mark and i broke up,,but still memoires hunts me and keep reminding me how i love him so much,,until now there still a space in my heart that he is occupying..

ΩΩΩ

..I LEARNED ONE THING..THAT IS,SOMETIMES REALITY IS VERY HARD TO ACCEPT..

ΩΩΩ

..hOpeless romantic..

..i am a princess of no one,who dreams of living in a place called 'HEART', a dreamer of a good fairytale love story of my own and a searcher of my destiny..

Agapi mou

..i am a dreamer of a man who'll proudly shout to the world that i am he's only woman,whom he is not ashamed of introducing me to his family and friends,whom will serve as my 'knight in the shining armor' and defend me not because he just wanted me,but because he needs me as his woman,whom will lend me his shoulders in times of my pains,whom will i adore not because he is cute nor handsome but because he is nice and sweet,whom i would see the future with,whom will appreciate and accept the whole me,whom will share secrets with me,whom will render patience and loyalty,whom will give me his sweet kisses and hugs,whom will not afraid of showing his tears,my LOVER,and most specially whom will make me laugh and proudly say ' i am the most beautiful woman whom he'd ever met'

..MAN of my DREAMS..i am waiting for YOU.

s'agapo (Σ'αγαπώ)--i love you

[sakit,init,lamig at pighati] ..

..the world is unpredictable,sometimes it is fair but most often it is not..

..i tend to fight over and over,think positively and give the best and as much as i can,but then i failed..my past experiences taught me one thing,hold strong for i am a fighter..

..this is the irony of life the best thing i can do is to cope with it,live it and learn from it.,